Diary of a Secret Eater (anonymous – obviously because it’s secret!)
How many of you do it? Be honest now, no-one’s listening! I’ve done it in the past. You go to bed every night telling yourself that tomorrow will be THE day you’ll start eating healthily ‘properly’ and ‘seriously’.
No more messing about, you’ll eat decent healthy food instead of junk, eat slower and stop eating by the time you feel just nicely full. Course you will. Pah! You kind of already know you won’t do it even as you say it to yourself.
The new day dawns, you feel good, you get up…mmmm? You haven’t actually planned for this have you? So you have the same breakfast as you’ve had for the last year or so, bowl of coco pops or similar, but that’s ok as you’ll have a decent healthy lunch won’t you without the usual cake, crisps, chocolate or ice cream.
You get on with work or whatever keeps you busy, then look at the clock. What?? Only 11am, it’s at least 2 hours till I can realistically have lunch, but I’m sooooo hungry. You carry on with stuff. 11.10, 11.15…you get the picture.
Oh, OK so you’ll have an apple then, that’s fine. Right so 1 lovely sweet & juicy apple later you’ve got that craving you get every time after eating fruit....you NEED chocolate. (Weird) But, no you refuse to ‘spoil’ everything.
You go back to the work project/mending the fence/ironing/TV or whatever and you have a fab idea! You’ve got those small KitKats in the fridge. Just 106 calories, great! That’s nothing at all really is it?
You scamper off happily to the fridge still feeling righteous with yourself. You have the little Kitkat and it feels so nice for the 5 seconds it takes to eat it (you’re still stood by the fridge with the door open), so you have another one because that’s a ‘normal size’ KitKat then. Immediately guilt sets in.
Tut… ‘Why did I DOOO that?’ Wailing & gnashing of teeth sets in. You happen to glance at the cat, and you could swear she’s silently and smugly tittering at you, judging by the superior expression as she looks away from you in disgust! Even the bloody cat knew you’d blow it!
Right, you gather yourself, regroup and realise that it’s just a KitKat, you can come back from this, pull yourself together! It’s fine anyway, as you can just eat less tonight for dinner can’t you, less carbs or something along those lines will sort it.
You decide to do that 10 minutes of HIIT (High Intensity Interval Training) from the YouTube video you saw last week. So you put that on the laptop and follow it as much as you can. You don’t do the ones where they get down on the floor as you tell yourself you’ll do those when you’ve got more time to spare.
You do the last bit where they do ‘skater jumps’ and feel good as you are out of breath after the 60 seconds of that – that’s a good sign as it means you’re burning fat – yay! After that invigorating interlude it’s back to work then.
Fast forward to lunch time. 1pm, at last lunch time. A nice tuna, tomato and cucumber sandwich on weightwatchers Danish with some ‘light’ buttermilk spread, mmmm lovely. Very nice actually.
Oooh you must remember to drink enough water to metabolise all that fat you’re burning off, so you have a nice big glass of no added sugar squash. Excellent, all set up for the afternoon, feeling just nice & comfortably full. High hopes for making it a good day!
You CAN do this…if you truly want. You just need the right frame of mind that lasts. Weight control is literally all in the mind. Shame there’s nothing that can help you with that…... There is!
You can use the power you already have within you, but probably don’t get around to using, or even know is there, to re-train your mind to do this. If you aren’t sure how then you could learn how – anyone can.
I’m here if you need me to show you how.
Much Love
Karen